CFJTM Chapter 94. I can’t bear it. I have an uneasy and guilty conscience.

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CFJTM Chapter 94. I can’t bear it. I have an uneasy and guilty conscience.

Shen Qingshu shook his head. “I don’t want to.”

When Han Cheng heard his refusal, he couldn’t help saying, “what were you crying about?”

Shen Qingshu: …

Shen Qingshu was silent.

“You’re afraid I’m not serious, aren’t you?” Han Cheng asked him, “Afraid I lied to you about falling in love with you just because I didn’t want to break up with you. That I will still only treat you as a car friend?”

“You even said you’re willing to try with Meng Zhi because he was suitable, but you don’t dare to try with me. Are you afraid that in the end, you will still have nothing because I don’t love you and just want to maintain the previous relationship with you?”

Shen Qingshu lowered his gaze and shook his head.

“What are you afraid of? Shen Qingshu, what’s your reason for rejecting me?”

Shen Qingshu raised his eyes and looked at him quietly.

After a long time, he said, “your destined love is not me.”

He said, “Han Cheng, I didn’t lie to you. You really have a lot of fate with Bai Jian. I had a dream. I dreamed that you met in the warm spring season, got to know each other and fell in love. You loved him dearly. Even if you encounter misunderstandings and setbacks, you are unwilling to let go of him. He was your world and you just wanted to be with him. You love him. Do you understand?”

He continued, “Now, just like in my dream, you meet again and again in the warm spring season. You continue to help him and deepen your favour in his heart. He will fall in love with you, and you will slowly pity him and love him back. Therefore, you should not tell me this. You should tell him this, do you understand?”

Han Cheng did not understand.

Of course he didn’t understand. He didn’t even understand why it was him and Bai Jane.

In Shen Qingshu’s dream, why is it not Shen Qingshu and him in the dream, but Bai Jian and him?

Does he know Bai Jian?

Does he know Bai Jian very well?

Did they say ten sentences between them?

Why does he want to be with Bai Jian, and still only love him and want to be with him?

That’s a joke, okay?

“When did you believe so much in feudal superstition? Do you take dreams seriously?”

Han Cheng looked at him. “Dreams show the opposite. If you say so, your dreams will only prove that there’s no possibility of me and Bai Jian getting together, and I will definitely not like him.”

“But you keep meeting him by chance. You helped him more than the whole crew combined. I’ve been with him for so many days, and I haven’t seen him in trouble with him once, but what about you? You just came and you met him and helped him again. Your fate is too strong. Think about it yourself, how many times have you seen him? You helped him so many times, if that’s not fate. What is it? “

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Han Cheng: …

Han Cheng nodded, “Okay, even if he dies in front of me in the future, I won’t stop or look at him at all, regardless of his life or death.”

“That’s not what I meant.”

“Of course you don’t mean that. You just think we are a destined couple, don’t you?”

“You are a couple.”

“A couple of what? An incompatible couple? The first line of the couplet: the hero saves the beauty and she bit the hand that fed her. The second line of the couplet: feudal superstition is deadly, cross criticism, opposition to arranged marriage, long live free love!”

Shen Qingshu: …

Han Cheng didn’t understand, “You just had a dream and decided the rest of my life? It doesn’t matter if I really like him or not, you’re sure I’ll be with him?”

The main reason is that this is not a dream. This is the world of a novel. In this world, your true love is him!

Shen Qingshu has a lot of reasons, but he can’t say any.

“Soon after I had this dream, he appeared, and you began to have many coincidental meetings. I also thought about whether this dream may not be accurate, but your repeated encounters are so coincidental every time. Even if I want to tell myself that this dream is false and you won’t be together, I can’t convince myself. Do you understand?”

Shen Qingshu was not unshakable, but at the restaurant, Han Cheng said they had met before and he saved him.

Han Cheng was not there when he went to find him last night. After a while, Han Cheng and Bai Jian met again, and he helped him again.

Even today, as soon as they broke off their relationship, Bai Jian and Han Cheng met again. Bai Jian was also very concerned and asked him if something had happened to Han Cheng, making him even more unhappy.

How can there be such a coincidence?

How can there be so many scenes of the hero saving the beauty?

Isn’t this the binding of fate?

When it is destined that you are a couple, you will be a couple. Even if Han Cheng doesn’t like him now and they don’t like each other in the early stage, are there few protagonists who love each other in the later stage?

“I don’t want you to miss your fate. I’m afraid you’ll feel regret at that time. Regret that you didn’t meet him earlier and that you didn’t get together earlier.”

Regretted that he had wasted unnecessary time with him.

“That’s why you kept mentioning him in front of me and saying we were destined?”

“Try it out with him.” Shen Qingshu whispered, “maybe after some contact, you will find that he is quite suitable for you.”

“Aren’t you quite generous? You want me to try with him?”

No, you’re the real couple. Together we have CP names, our CP has solid four rules of arithmetic method of calculation.

Han Cheng looked at him and said, “you really don’t like me at all?”

Shen Qingshu didn’t speak.

“From the mention of fate from you, you don’t feel any jealousy?”

“… You are the fated couple. I have nothing to be jealous of.” Shen Qingshu lowered his eyes.

Han Cheng: …

Han Cheng thinks he’s really amazing!

He should have realised with how fierce and stubborn Shen Qingshu was when he wanted to enter the entertainment industry. Even if those two people looked down on and bullied him, he didn’t say a word. He just planned secretly and never asked him for help. The same with when he had quietly saved money to enter the draft.

Later, when he met an agent in the bar, he finally revealed his plan, but no matter how Han Cheng advised him, he would continue to join the entertainment industry. Even if he didn’t agree, he would stick to his career.

Once he was really stubborn, no one could persuade him at all. It was the same before, and it’s the same now.

“If Bai Jian and I try and find we are not suitable. Will you fall in love with me then?”

“There’s no way you will be unsuitable.”

“Nothing is absolutely 100%. If we don’t get along, will you?”

Shen Qingshu looked at him and didn’t speak.

“I can give him a chance, but only once.” Han Cheng said seriously, “I know you have this knot in your heart now and you overcome it. If you don’t untie this knot, we can’t talk about the future, so I’m willing to untie this knot for you.”

“You’re afraid that I’m not sincere with you now, and afraid that when I say I want to try and fall in love with you. You’re afraid I won’t really be in love with you and want to fall in love with others, so you want to avoid getting hurt. You want to protect yourself. I can understand and I’m willing to respect your ideas. Therefore, I can help you untie this knot.”

“I’ll get in touch with him, have a meal, talk about some topics, and see if there is really fate between us. But you have to go with me, and you have to carefully observe if there is fate between us. Then, can we discuss this again?”

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“I don’t want you to have an unnecessary misunderstanding with him.” Shen Qingshu said in a quiet voice, “love itself has the possibility of breaking up. No one can predict whether they will be together forever in the future at the beginning. Therefore, I am not afraid of injury, and I don’t care whether my lover really loves me when we are dating or doesn’t love me when we are dating. Love has two possibilities, being together and breaking up. I can accept the uncertainty.”

“But I don’t want you to have any unnecessary misunderstanding with him. But what if you already know that as long as you go along this road, it will lead you to happiness? In that case how can you want to go another way just because you doubt the scenery along this road?”

“In this world, everyone wants to take a shortcut and ascend to the sky in one step. Now, I already know where the shortcut is and where there is a ladder to ascend to the sky. I can’t bear to pretend not to see it. I will have an uneasy and guilty conscience, to you, to him but mostly to you.”

Han Cheng looked at the sadness in his eyes and reached out to touch his face. Shen Qingshu moved to evade. Han Cheng kept him in pace and directly pulled him in his arms, wrapped his arms around and held him tightly.

He always knew that Shen Qingshu cared about him very much, and he also knew that Shen Qingshu was always tolerant and even centred his thoughts around him.

In the past six months together, they have never had a quarrel, because Shen Qingshu will reason with him about major events, and never cares about small things. No matter how he’s treated, he is always willing to follow his whims. As though, as long as he is happy, Shen Qingshu will also be happy.

Han Cheng never doubted that Shen Qingshu would save him no matter who he fell into the water with.

But now, for the first time, he realised that should he and Shen Qingshu fall into the water at the same time, Shen Qingshu would choose to let him go ashore first.

He had roasted many times in his heart that Shen Qingshu was careless, that he was heartless and did not care about himself at all.

However, Shen Qingshu actually remembers everything and hides everything silently. Every time he says “you’re the best”, he is sincere, every time he says a word, a flower blooms in his heart. When it blooms all over the mountains and fields, Han Cheng becomes the most important person in his heart, even more important than himself.

“I’ll go and have dinner with him, get to know him well, and you have to go too. You go and see if we fit together and see if it’s fate like you thought.”

He looked down at Shen Qingshu. “Go to bed. It’s late. You have to film tomorrow.”

Shen Qingshu looked at him. Han Cheng’s eyes were calm, deep and dark.

He nodded and ended the night’s dispute.

Han Cheng looked at his lowered head. He rarely saw such a silent and lifeless Shen Qingshu.

In his memory, Shen Qingshu has always been a proud sunshine boy, chattering like a small magpie with a lotus tongue.

However, now he thought that Shen Qingshu was just a normal ordinary person with joys and sorrows. He was only in his twenties and still young, so he would also encounter his own difficulties, he would also be silent and trapped in his own difficulties.

But it doesn’t matter. He will help him out. He is several years older than Shen Qingshu. He has been taking care of him since they met. Now, he will take care of him and guide him out of this dilemma.

Han Cheng pinched his neck. Shen Qingshu looked up at him. Han Cheng smiled at him, bent over and picked him up.

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