CFJTM Chapter 152. “Baby.”* & End of Women’s Clothing (Sweet Sweet Sweet) part 1

TN: We’re nearing the one year anniversary of my first post!!! Can’t believe it (✿˵•́◡•̀˵)

I would like to believe my skill level has gone up, even if just a tiny little bit {*≧∀≦}

*Can be translated as darling, baby or treasure, you can substitute the version you like in your mind while reading xD 

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It was late. Shen Qingshu didn’t go to the dressing room to remove makeup and change clothes. He wrapped himself in Han Cheng’s windbreaker and walked all the way to the car under Han Cheng’s guidance.

Han Cheng’s car was in the parking lot. Shen Qing got in the car, took off his windbreaker, and heard the door close. Then he was surrounded by someone.

He turned his head and looked. Han Cheng smiled and kissed him on the face. Then he picked him up and put him on his leg so that they could look at each other directly.

He held Shen Qingshu’s waist and kissed his lips gently.

Shen Qingshu unconsciously laughed and slowly kissed him back.

“Did you miss me?” Han Cheng asked him.

“No.” Shen Qingshu said with a smile.

Han Cheng frowned, “I will allow you to answer again.”

“I still don’t.” Shen Qingshu deliberately said.

Han Cheng was so angry that he bit his lower lip. “You really didn’t?”

“I really didn’t.” Shen Qingshu’s eyes are full of mirth.

He looked at Han Cheng with his head tilted and a smile on his face.

Han Cheng pinched his face helplessly. “You must have missed me.”

“I didn’t.”

Han Cheng: …

Han Cheng prevented his mouth from speaking again and deliberately making him angry.

Shen Qingshu smiled and kissed him again with great cooperation, feeling tender in his heart.

At the end of the kiss, he said softly to Han Cheng, “Ask me again.”

Han Cheng refused, “I’m afraid you will continue to annoy me.”

“Ask.” Shen Qingshu urged him.

Seeing this, Han Cheng asked again, “Did you miss me?”

Shen Qingshu’s words were on the tip of his tongue, but somehow he wanted to tease him again, “I’m sorry, I really didn’t.”

Han Cheng: ! ! !

Han Cheng was so angry that he stretched out his hand to tickle him.

Shen Qingshu didn’t expect this action, he was unprepared and laughed directly.

He hid while laughing. Finally, he couldn’t bear it and hugged Han Cheng, rubbing against his shoulder

He kissed this side of Han Cheng’s face. “I miss you everyday. I missed you as soon as you left.”

“I knew it.” Han Cheng stopped.

Shen Qingshu hugged him with a smile, gently rubbed his ear, and hugged him tightly, acting very clingy.

Han Cheng always liked seeing his sticky appearance. He looked down at him, kissed his cheek, and asked him, “Do you want to kiss?”

Shen Qingshu looks up at him and nods silently.

Han Cheng pinched his face with a smile and bowed his head to kiss him again.

Shen Qingshu leaned against him and kissed him.

His lips are soft and moist. He held Han Cheng’s neck and asked him, “Did you like my outfit today?”

“Not really. It’s mainly because I haven’t seen you wearing a skirt before, so it’s very novel to see it for the first time, and you really look good in it.”

Han Cheng is honest.

“So did it give you other ideas?”

Han Cheng smiled and hugged him

He thought of Su Qing in the play. Sitting on the bed with his mother crying silently in his arms, Su Qing was just like a painting without any vitality.

Since he didn’t like wearing skirts, Han Cheng also didn’t like it.

“Does Cheng Han know his family environment?” Han Cheng asked him.

“He doesn’t know.” Shen Qingshu answered.

There was no Cheng Han in the novel, but he wanted his first movie to be filmed by the person he cared about most, so he added Cheng Han, who Su Qing loved.

“Did he give Su Qing another name or nickname?”

“No.” Shen Qingshu replied carelessly.

“He must have.” Han Cheng said, “Su Qing doesn’t like his name. Cheng Han likes him, so he won’t like it either. He will definitely give him a nickname to let Su Qing know that he is unique in his heart.”

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“Then what do you think his nickname would be?” Shen Qingshu asked curiously.

Han Cheng thought for a moment, “Maybe it’s ‘baby’ or something. His mother doesn’t treat him as her baby. Cheng Han loves him, and he will definitely want to compensate him twice for what he is lacking. He may not have been able to be his mother’s baby, but with him, he can be a baby who will never need to grow up to bear any weight.”

Shen Qingshu listened and felt sad for a while.

He enters the characters emotions quickly and can also remove himself quickly. When Mei Ruo shouts “cut”, he will come out of Su Qing’s state and forget Su Qing’s sadness in the movie.

But Han Cheng’s words brought him into character again, which made him think that if Su Qing could meet Cheng Han, it must be a good thing.

Su Qing in the movie decides to live according to his heart after Chen Ai dies.

He didn’t want to lose himself like Chen Ai, and finally took the road that others once doomed him to.

But he knew very well that if he no longer wore skirts and pretended to be his sister, sooner or later his mother would have a nervous breakdown.

So he burned the pleated skirt and set it on fire in front of his mother.

He told her cruelly that Su Qing was lost and had disappeared long ago. He was not Su Qing, he was not a girl, he was not her daughter, he was the son she gave birth to after Su Qing was lost. He is not Su Qing now, and he will never be Su Qing in this life.

His mother couldn’t accept it, and frantically struggled to find her daughter.

He didn’t stop her and let her run out.

He followed his mother from behind, watching her pick up another’s child and say it was her daughter, watching the other side scold her as “crazy”. He went to apologise and help her deal with the aftermath, but he did not persuade her to go home as before.

He allowed her to keep moving forward as she wanted to find her daughter.

He just followed her as she carried on.

He followed her all the way and cried all the way. When she was scolded, he felt sad. When she was helpless and confused, he felt distressed. But he didn’t want to compromise anymore. He wanted to tear open this scab completely and be himself.

He accompanied her through the night, into the day, and then into the night. She sat on the bench watching the stars, and he sat on the bench watching her.

In this way, he followed her day and night, day and night, and continued day and night, silent and stubborn.

At last, she seemed unable to walk, squatted on the roadside and cried in a quiet voice.

Su Qing walked up to her, squatted down and hugged her. He said, “I will find her, and I will never stop searching for her. I love her. No matter who Su Qing is, I will find him, and I will love him.” ¹ 

His mother leaned against him and cried bitterly.

Su Qing held her, sad and gentle.

His heart is far stronger than anyone, he is stronger than everyone he meets. Even if he has failed, is lonely, painful, or confused, in the end he stands up and moves in the direction he wants to go.

So Shen Qingshu didn’t set a cp for him at that time. He didn’t need others’ salvation, because he could pull himself out of the mud.

But now, Shen Qingshu feels that he should be loved.

He can redeem himself, but he can also be warmed by others, the two are not in conflict. He has suffered so much and he has never met a person who simply likes him as an individual. He should meet such a person, because he is worth it.

“After this film is released, I may write an extra for him  and Cheng Han.” He said suddenly.

“En.” Han Cheng smiled and nodded.

Shen Qingshu looked at him and couldn’t help asking him, “Can you do the same? No matter what my name is, when my birthday is, whether I wear a skirt or trousers, what the situation at home is and what I look like, will you still like me? Just simply like me, does it matter what other external conditions are?”

Han Cheng felt a sudden tightness in his heart, and unconsciously held him even tighter.

He said, “Of course.”

Shen Qingshu actually knew that this would be the answer. Han Cheng liked him so much that this is the only possible answer.

But he was still very happy when hearing the answer he expected.

TN: Part 1 because this is all I have done today sorry (*_ _)人 but it will probably be out tomorrow!

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